Living the life we always dreamed of!

Lots of things have happened since our last post, lots and lots of happy things. For one Alex is so happy, he is enjoying life and that is what I prayed so much for. He wakes up every morning bright and early with a huge smile on his face. He goes into my room, lays next to me and says “good morning mom, can I go play my iPad in my room?”. He’s such a good little boy, always asks for mommy’s permission before he plays. As I lay in bed I can hear him singing throughout the house, laughing as he watches videos on his iPad, sometimes it’s reading out loud that I enjoy the most. When he is hungry he finds me to ask for his breakfast item of choice, that can be anything from pancakes to spaghetti or tacos, yeah this kid is something else. He eats like there’s no tomorrow, but then again so do I so that’s that. I still remember when he only ate about 5 things, boy have things changed.

As the day goes by he goes from a book, to a movie, to his iPad or better yet playing with his brother and sister. When we are lucky enough to have some sunshine he asks Julie to go outside with him to jump on the trampoline. They play chase and jump until they can’t no more. This has got to be one of the most beautiful sights my eyes have been blessed to see, watching Alex initiate play with his sister and others is such a blessing.
On sunday while we visited with Julie’s a godparents Alex saw two boys kicking a soccer ball around. Alex watched them for some time and then the unthinkable happened. As we all stood there talking and eating Alex got up and walked towards the boys, I kept my eyes on Alex to see what he would do. He went up to one of the boys and asked “what are you boys doing?” The boy answered “we are playing”, Alex looked at them some more and then asked “can I play?”. I about died at the very moment of excitement, my son, the boy who we were once told would/could never speak just asked another kid to play. The boys said “yes you can play” and one proceeded to kick the ball Alex’s way. Alex being the adorable geek that he is, doesn’t know much about sports, he has never been interested in them. He watched the ball come his way and made no attempt to stop it, it hit his leg and all he could do and say was, “ouch”. We all laughed and celebrated that amazing miracle we had all witnessed. Needless to say that moment made my day.

Everyday is a happy day at our home, everyday is a blessing I thank god for. As far as CEASE goes we are taking a break for now. Alex’s last clearing lasted a couple of months so we felt giving him a break was best. He is doing so well that I don’t feel we need to do much except enjoy every second of everyday. I waited so long to be able to write a post like this, so long. Feel so thankful the day has come, I have so much to be tankful for. And just like I can say this today, you will too one day. All I ask is that you never give up, that you always get up when you fall, that you fight for your child like your life depends on it, because it does. Recovery is possible, Alex is prove.

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I am who I am today because of you, my son.

Tonight was the first night my mother and I went to the movies together. She invited me to the movies and I gladly accepted. While this may seem completely unimportant to many, it meant a lot to me. What is so special about this you may be asking? Well I’ll tell you what makes today’s event so meaningful to me and hopefully to you as well. The movie we watched was “Son of God” a movie I hadn’t even heard of until my mom mentioned it to me. As we sat watching Jesus’s life, I couldn’t help to think about Alex and the journey we’ve been on for the past 5 years. The more I watched the more I understood why, why we had been chosen to go through this, why I was chosen to be his mother.

Before Alex, I lived an empty life, I smiled to keep others happy, I made jokes to cheer them up. I did everything I did to please others while filling the void I had deep inside even if it was only temporary. Alex came into my life to fill every empty part of me, every single part. I knew he was special, very special. I always knew he would change my life and that of those around him. Jesus was the chosen son of god, just like our children were chosen for us. Everyone of those children out there were chosen to change our lives, each one. They were chosen to teach us just what life is truly about. While I wish the way would have been different, less painful mainly, I know this was the only way to teach us to appreciate everything god created for us. Just like we’ve told many people that the way they ate was wrong, that vaccines could/would hurt their children, that the natural way was the best way and yet they haven’t listened, maybe we wouldn’t have listened either. No one learns by others pain, no one understands your pain unless they have felt it themselves.

I ask, would you know just how powerful words are if it wasn’t because our children’s voices were taken? Would any of you truly feel the way you feel when your child hugs you? When your children eat? When they sleep? When they play? When they smile? When they look into your eyes and say so much without saying one single word? Tell me, would you know how HUGE that is if it wasn’t for what has happened to our children?

As I watched Mary look into her sons eyes as they said to her “your son will be our king, he is the chosen one” I realized our kids were chosen too. As Jesus carried the cross I realized that we all have a cross to carry, all of us. Some crosses are heavier than others and when it is our kids carrying that cross it’s even that much more painful. Mary watched as her son was beaten and crucified yet in her eyes I could see peace. As if she knew he would be ok, that he would return. That brought me back to a very painful day when I saw my husband cry as I have never seen him nor wanted to see. He was defeated, lost, without hope, without faith. He was crying because his son as he knew was gone, he cried and I could see the hopelessness in his eyes. I got on my knees just as he was, I looked him straight in the eyes and I made him a promise. A promise I was not going to break, a promise that I knew someway, somehow I would make a reality. I said to him “Luis I promise you that I will give you your son back, I will bring him back. Just like I gave him to you that beautiful November night 2 years ago, I will give him back you again. I don’t know how or when, but I promise you I will”.

Since that moment I have been determined to make that promise a reality. I have worked tirelessly trying to follow every sign god has given me to the best of my ability. I remember one night I broke down as I felt helpless, I broke down and cried. I asked god to do as he will, because I knew I was powerless without him. He is the almighty, his will and his power is what I needed to believe in. I put my sons faith in his hands, just like god had honored me with that beautiful boy once. I begged of him to return him to me once again, I begged god as though my life depended on it, because it did. I put Alex’s life in god hands and told god I would respect whatever he decided to do with it as couldn’t change what would happened anyways. I put my faith in god, I asked for guidance, for strength, I asked for him to show me the way. I have followed his signs the best way I could, I’ve learned to listen to my intuition, to question everything, I’ve learned so much. I have grown in every possible way, I am the amazing woman and mother I am today because of everything we’ve been through. I waited patiently ( at times) to hear Alex’s voice, I never lost faith that I would one day. I’ve waited for every hug, every touch, every smile, everything he can do today. We take nothing for granted now and I can only thank god and Alex for that. That angel has shown me just how great and powerful a single word can be, how a hug can shake you to your core. How looking into someone’s eyes can tell you so much about that person without a word needed. Alex has shown me how to smile from within, from the heart which is where it truly counts. Today I can confidently say I am happy, inside and out. Alex’s voice set me free, his voice was worth all the pain we have been through. Seeing him smile heals my heart, my soul, heals my painful and broken being. Alex, my son thank you for everything you’ve taught me, thank you for showing me that miracles do exist, that blessings come in all shapes and sizes, that god truly does listen when you believe in him. What a way to teach me god does exist, you my son have taught me more in your lifetime than I ever learned in mine. Every second of everyday is a blessing, I now know that because of you. Thank you Alex, thank you for showing me how to live a fulfilling life, a meaningful life.

To every mother reading this, I ask that you never loose hope, that you never give up. One day you too will hear your sons voice, one day you will hear then sing, dance, speak, laugh. One day they will look straight into your eyes while holding your hand tightly and thank you for never giving up. They will thank you for being strong when all you wanted to do was crumble, for believing even though things were not going your way. For being their voices when they had none, for being the best possible mother you could have been given the circumstances. They will thank you for always getting up when you fell, for never staying down. One day all the bad moments will be just memories, memories that will no longer hurt. One day you will look back and know you wouldn’t change a thing even if you could. Everything we have lived up to today was meant to be, it was written, everything. It was the way it was to make us who we are today.

I’ll end tonight’s post with this:
Luke 1:37 – For with God nothing shall be impossible. Amen

Happy days!

Happy days are becoming an everyday part of our lives. Alex has finally finished the hep b clearing we have been working on for months now. I can’t say enough about this clearing, it’s given us amazing gains. I’ll list the improvements as I recall them, they are not in order of when/how they happened during the clearing just how my poor memory can recall.

• more understanding of what was being said or asked.
• he started asking questions about random things, questions about why he couldn’t eat a certain food item, questions about where dad was, Julie, Santi, etc.
• Alex is signing and signing throughout the house, he is happy and he wants the whole house to know it.
• Alex has been spending more time outta his room and playing with Julie.
• as we drive around he asks “are we there yet?” Like a millions times like I always heard other moms say their kids did, yeah this is exciting to me! lol
• he is making up excuses as to why he can’t go to ABA, he’ll say things like “yeah mom tell “_________” I can’t go to therapy today” when I ask him why he says “because I just can’t mom”, good try buddy.
• he is commenting on things and saying the silliest things also. The other day when I told him we had no more lettuce he said “o lord we have no money for food, someone help us, someone hear our prayers!” lol I about laughed my voice away from laughing so hard.
• his sense of humor is emerging too, yesterday he was telling me knock knock jokes. Then the other night he walked into the living room and said “is it hot in here or is it just me?” Alex you’re one funny guy.
• he’s happier and more comfortable is how in can describe it. He’s answering questions he couldn’t before like: how are you? What do you need? He’s telling us he’s hungry, when before it was just I want followed by the item he wanted, he’s
asking in full sentences what he wants or needs. His language has gotten tremendously clearer and a lot more frequent.

Overall we are all happier because, well you know why, Alex is happy. When Alex is happy momma is happy, and when momma is happy this house bursts with happiness. What clearing is next? Not sure yet, Sima and I have yet to decide. For now I can say I love where we are, we are at a happy place thanks to god, Sima and CEASE therapy. I don’t now exactly what the future holds for us, but I have a HUGE suspicion it’s going to be awesome!

Blessings and healing thoughts for you all from Alex and the gang!

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Healing right before my eyes.

Since my last post many things have happened, many amazing things have happened right before my eyes. As I sit here writing this I can’t help but to thank god for all the miracles I witness daily. Alex is blossoming just like I always prayed he would, like I always begged god for. He is talking in sentences, spending more time out of his room, laughing and giggling with his siblings, he’s telling me how he feels, his being funny, telling jokes, he’s healing . It’s just breath taking to hear the things that come out of his mouth, the way he’s interacting with us, so connected, so here. He’s telling me how much he loves me, how much he loves Peanut (his dog) he says they are best friends. Hearing him say that’s makes my heart melt, seeing how he asks about Peanut when he can’t find him shows me how much he cares for him. He protests when Peanut gets a bath as Alex’s isn’t a big fan of showers himself. He protects and loves Peanut just as I hoped for. I wanted Alex to have a best friend, I think I have succeeded in that. Peanut is the perfect match for Alex, he is amazing.

Everyday he shows me just how much better he is and feels. He’s back doing ABA and the therapists couldn’t be more surprised at how much progress he’s made since they last saw him a couple of months ago. I’m sure they expected regression, little do they know he’s gotta a momma who prays and works daily for him to heal more and more, who has an amazing homeopath and god on her side. As time goes by I am sure they’ll realize what an amazing team we are. Alex, Mom and dad, Sima Ash and my almighty god, together we can’t be stopped.

CEASE/Hep B clearing: I can’t say enough about this clearing, it’s been about 4 months since we began and Alex is making so much progress. It’s insane how much clearer his speech is now, how sentences fly out of his mouth with such ease. He’s asking questions, talking back to me when he doesn’t agree with my decisions, (yeah even this makes me smile and happy, who would have thought) he is asking for different things, wanting to go places, making deals with momma, healing right before my eyes.
We started 10M potency last week and the reaction from him was almost immediate. He developed a low fever just a day after, he was so calm and so connected during this time. No stimming whatsoever, this is the only potency that’s caused this reaction. The earlier potencies had some mild aggravations, some night waking and mood swings. But after all the aggravations had past, the miracles would shine through.

I’ll share a few pictures of Alex’s recent moments. He is growing so fast, can’t believe his 7 now. Seems like just yesterday he joined my world to make it a happy place. May god bless each and every one out there, may he heal your children as he’s healing mine,
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Quick update!

First and foremost Merry Christmas to everyone, hope you all had a wonderful time with friends and family. This year Alex asked Santa for 2 DVDs and pajamas, that boy is so easy to please. Santa was a bit more generous though and brought an extra gift or two. Alex had fun opening presents and was super excited when he saw the movies he had asked for. I have to say his smile was the best gift I got this Christmas.

CEASE: As far as the Hep b clearing goes we are on our 3rd week of 200C, I’m thinking it should be the last one as we haven’t seen much from it. No aggravations I mean, he’s been doing great, I’ll have to run this by Sima to see what she wants us to do. During these past 2 weeks I’ve seen him more talkative and his been spending more time upstairs with us. He even ate dinner with me and dad a few nights ago. He’s a bit more interested in socializing is what I’m trying to say. It’s been a pleasure to see him show that’s he truly cares for Peanut. He’s asking Peanut to not only sleep in his room but also jump in bed with him! The other day when dad was shaving Peanut’s paws Alex came into the bathroom and was very agitated and asked us to stop cutting Peanuts hair. Alex isn’t fond of haircuts and was protecting his puppy from getting one too. He kept saying “Peanut says that’s enough, stop dad, stop”. I kept assuring him that Peanut would be ok but Alex was not buying it. Once we finished we put Peanut outside to shake off any hair on him and Alex again came looking for him, he said “where’s Peanut the dog? Where’s is he mom?”. It was a great reminder that Alex does love his dog, he may not show it like Julie or Santi but Alex loves his dog in his own way.

Life is great at this moment, I have to say we are blessed. The kids are healthy, I am too, Luis has a wonderful job where all his work is appreciated and rewarded. God is very good to us. Happy New Years to everyone. May this 2014 bring our kids lots and lots of healing, that’s my wish for you all!

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Moving right along!

After five long week on Hep b 30C I can happily and very excitingly say we have moved up to 200C this week. I am a bit anxious to see what 200C will bring. While on 30C I noticed a lot of mixed emotions coming or leaving Alex I should say. One minute he was as happy as he could be and the next he was very unhappy about his sister or bother blinking, about losing in a game he was playing on his iPad, or for no apparent reason. Thankfully the anger wouldn’t last anymore then a few minutes and were in short episodes throughout the day. Not everyday was like this either, mostly Saturdays for some strange reason. It seemed that the second dose (Thursdays) was a little too much for him and it would all come out on Saturday. This past week we didn’t see much of anything good or bad so I have moved him to 200 c. It’s only been 3 days into it and I haven’t noticed many changes. He’s calm which is always good but I am sure we will see something soon.

This weekend we had a few events to attend to, me and Luis that is. Luis went his very first Blazers game and I went to Bob Red Mills annual Christmas party. I am sure you all know who Bob is, right? You know that adorable man on the gluten free flour packages? Well that’s me with Bob (picture below) this past Saturday, can you believe Bob really does exist !!!!!. As I spoke to him I made sure I asked a very important question many moms had: are his flours GMO free? YES THEY ARE and they are currently in the process of changing their labels to say it also.
While I was away the kids enjoyed having a super fun babysitter, her boys whom I must mentioned, are two 15 year old boys who are healed from autism. This woman has been such a blessing in my life, her name is very well known to many as she has been in this journey for quiet some time now. Jane Casey, my friend, my sister, my partner in crime. Today she came out with her book which I would encourage everyone to read. She knows so much about diet, gut issues, fermenting, etc, she’s amazing! Get her book and start healing your kids gut aka “second brain” as Jane refers to it. We must never forget that we are what we eat! Gut Over It

Here’s some pictures from their fun times on Saturday while I was away. I must say my kids didn’t miss me at all, Tia Jane is super fun!

Sunday: we put up our Christmas tree and were happily surprised when Alex decided to help decorate it. It’s always fun and such a blessing to see him interested in something other then electronics. I have to say this weekend was awesome! I’ll keep updating about Alex and his clearing as we go. As always keep us in your prayers, much love and healing for all!

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