Where are we now?

It’s been quite some time since I posted, I apologize for that. So many things to tell you all, where to begin. I guess I will start with what we are doing now, Alex is clearing Hep A, Hep B and Varicella. We switched  omeopath and are now working with a one in London. He uses Poly vaccine remedies which I must confess I was terrified to use because I figured if Alex can get strong aggravations from clearing one vaccine how would he react to clearing three at a time? Lucky for me he has not had  too bad of aggravations, mild fevers, runny nose, moodiness, the usual. The other two kids have reacted along with him which is usual as well, they were all sick at one point and let me tell you three sick kids is no fun. While on 30C I didn’t see too many changes with Alex, the one change I did see which scared me was he wasn’t talking as much anymore. With the 200C potency which is the one he ALWAYS reacts strongly to, he started talking a lot more but there was also lots of anger that came with it. I have been giving Alex liver support and hoping acupuncture and chiropractic adjustments help him throughout the clearing as well. His new homeopath put him on a Saturday remedy called Morgan Pure which is a bowel nosode. Alex has never been on one so this is really new to us, nightly he is on a remedy as well. We should be done with this clearing in the next two weeks, he wants us to do two weeks on each potency like when we first started CEASE four years ago. This method is much faster and I am hoping  we can get more clearings done, faster  and achieve more healing too, we always want more healing.

Family life: In December we were driving to my moms house and not even a minute after we left the house we got into a car accident, me and the three kids. Alex tried to stop me from leaving the house by saying “mom we can’t leave, we must stay’, he cried and screamed and I didn’t listen, boy was I sorry.  That day has got to be one of the scariest days of my life as  I felt I was unable to protect my kids. I say this because a split second before we made impact with the other vehicle I slammed on my brakes as hard as I could which I don’t know if it helped or caused more damage to my leg. I couldn’t move or feel my leg, a pedestrian helped me get the kids out of the car and then carried me out of the car. Alex was very nervous following the accident, Julie was terrified as well and me to promise her I would never die god only know how many times. Santi is too young to tell me what he’s feeling but I did notice he was so much more clingy the weeks after. We have been going to acupuncture, chiropractor, the kids and I developed coughs which I suspect are from the chemical released by the three airbags that deployed in our van. Julie has been to a specialist for this because her kept getting worse and worse, my cough lasted about 6 weeks and thankfully is gone now. Long story, somewhat short, it’s been a very painful and stressful past three months.

What’s next for us? Well in two weeks I will know when we talk to our homeopath once again, I am eager to see what he has planned for Alex. As always I ask that you pray for my son, pray for more healing, more words, more happy healthy days to come. Wishing the same for you, may god bless everything you do for your children, may he protect them always.

Shelley, I promised you I would post, this is for you. May you enjoy this update. I will post again when I know what is next for us. God bless you, keep me posted on your baby as well, I would love a picture of him as now I am curious to see how much he looks like my Alex!

Where are we now?

A letter to my son on his birthday.

What to say when you feel like you’ve said so much. How do I describe love so powerful, so unmeasurable, so endless. A love that only a mother could feel for her child, a child that showed her how to love unconditionally, who has taught her so much in what some people may see as a short amount of time. Before you came along I felt lost, unwanted, like no matter where I went I didn’t belong. I remember November 1, 2006 like it was yesterday. I had been waiting so long for you, so long. I still remember how anxious I was to meet you, walking through the hospital halls hoping that as I walked I’d be a step closer to meeting you. I remember asking the nurses how much progress I had made every few minutes, all I wanted to hear was “ma’am your baby will be here soon”. I put so much love into getting things ready for your arrival, every piece of clothing was chosen and seemed perfectly made just for you. Daddy was there with me, he too couldn’t wait to meet you. Dad didn’t say much, he’s a quiet guy unlike momma. But I know just how much he wanted to hold you in his arms, you would make him a father and Alex let me say, you’ve made him the best father I’ve ever met. The moment the doctor said “look dad, here comes your son” his eyes filled with tears. For the first time since I had met your dad he didn’t hold his emotions in, he couldn’t, what you made him feel was much bigger and stronger than him. I’ll never forget how he looked at me as you joined us, as if without words he was thanking me for making him the happiest man alive. I’ll never forget it, you truly changed our lives from the second we saw you.

You’ve made us so happy Alex, so very happy. Being your mother made me a better human being, made me who I am today. I am so proud of you, you’re such a fighter, such a wise little guy, you are my hero. You’ve been through so much yet you never forgot how to smile and that my son is a beautiful thing.

Today you turn a year older and I can’t even believe it’s been this long. Eight years ago you made me the happiest woman alive, that day you made me a mother, the best role I’ve played in this life. We’ve been through so much together, I wouldn’t be who I am today without you. Please know that I will always be here for you, just guide me son, I promise to follow. I pray so much that the year you start today is an amazing one. That it’s filled with new firsts, new adventures, more healing and most of all filled with love and health. Happy birthday son of mine, god bless you today and always.





A letter to my son on his birthday.

Strength, that’s all I ask for.

These past few weeks have been so up and down, one day we are on top of the world the next we are thrown back down without a warning. It’s been over five years since we began this journey and while we’ve made leaps and bounds things do still get tough, really tough. When will it be over I ask myself, when? Living with a child who was vaccine injured is a daily struggle, it hurts everyone in the house when Alex is struggling. This flu clearing hasn’t been easy, it’s been far from it. While we’ve had amazing days we’ve also had lots of bad ones, and when I say bad I mean bad. Alex’s major reactions with this clearing has been anger, very little tolerance for sounds, and a lot of sleep issues as well. The first week on 200c he had a fever and flu like symptoms, we are on week 3 now and I still see how it aggravates his mood as we dose. The other two kids have caught runny noses, fevers and coughing as well, today I felt sick with flu like symptoms too. The good thing about the clearing is that I’ve noticed he’s been asking more questions, the days when he is happy he is so with it, such a joy to be able to see the true happy Alex. Gives me a little preview of what’s to come, because I have no doubt he will continue to heal.

As far as school goes we are done with that, took them less than a month to crush my baby’s spirit. He refuses to go to school and he begged for months to go back. I remember the night before school started, he didn’t want to go to sleep. As soon as I said “if you don’t go to bed now you won’t go to school tomorrow” Alex ran into his room and tucked himself in. He was so excited and happy to see his aide, he kept saying he wanted friends, that he missed school. Four days into school his teacher emails me and tells she noticed that one of Alex’s strength was math. She started sending him to a regular education classroom for math every morning. Alex was super happy at first but very fast he started refusing to go. It all has gone from bad to worse, I realize homeschooling is the best and only option for us. Plus with Alex’s reactions to this clearing I think the best thing to do is stay home and continue focusing on his healing.

As always I pray and ask that you keep us in your prayers, please send my baby healing thoughts and energy. Wishing you the same as well.

Pictures from Alex’s first day of school and his first day back to homeschooling. Something about being in your pjs while you teach and learn just makes me smile:)





Strength, that’s all I ask for.

Today I ask for your help!

Last week while doing my daily rounds through my Facebook newsfeed I saw a post from a friend. She was asking for prayers, she didn’t say what the prayers were needed for but I prayed for her nonetheless. As the days went by I saw more posts of other fellow moms telling her they would keep praying for her and to be strong. I didn’t understand exactly what the situation was until I scrolled down and saw a post I wish was never written. It was a mom asking for prayers for Melanie, who was once again battling cancer. When I read that I felt as though someone knocked the wind outta me, didn’t know what to say. She’s the mother of a child with autism, a child who really needs his mom. He’s healing and life depends on mommy being by his side daily to keep fighting for him. I can’t even begin to tell you how much I feel for this woman, what she is facing isn’t easy. She’s a strong woman and it amazes me that through all of this her courage and sense of humor are intact. While many would cave and give up, she keeps fighting. We autism moms fight whatever comes our way, but let’s not forget we also need help, a lot of help. In her situation at this point financial help is truly needed as her medical bills will continue to pile up if they don’t get the help they need. I ask that if you can help at all you please do. And if you can’t help, share this link, maybe your friends and family can help. Anything helps, please donate if you can and please, please, please keep Melanie in your prayers.

Thank you in advance and god bless you all!

Melanie’s donation page!


Today I ask for your help!

Flu Clearing and everything in between.

Yes, we are back at it. If you don’t follow us on Facebook then you might not be aware that we are clearing again. Alex had a set back this summer, very unexpected as he was doing so good. It was heartbreaking to see him struggling so much, set backs are never easy that’s for sure. I spoke to Sima and as always, she’s got the answers we need. We talked a lot about diet, supplements, you name it. She mentioned clearing again which if I can be brutally honest, I hated the idea. I just want to see my boy healthy, happy, healed. And as much as I don’t like it, I have to clear again in order to obtained just that. Sima said she thought clearing the Flu shot would be a good idea. As I trust her completely, I agreed but was needing a little more conformation that that’s what god wanted us to do next. I sent my message out into the universe, I prayed and god answered. It’s beautiful how the universe and god have this special connection. You ask, you put your thoughts, dreams, wants out there and god uses the universe and people around us to deliver those answers we desperately need.

After me and Sima discussed and decided the flu vaccine would be our next clear I didn’t mention this to anyone. I didn’t blog about it, post on Facebook, nothing. It was between Sima, god, me and the universe. A week before I was set to start clearing my phone rang, I had one foot out the door rushing (as always) to get Julie to TKD. I hesitated to answer as I was running late, but something inside me said, “Lucy go back, you want to answer this call”, so I did. On the other side of that call was a mother I had spoken too months ago if not last year. My memory is horrendous so I honestly can’t pinpoint when we first spoke. She was calling to help guide me as I once did for her, how beautiful is that? She tells me she won’t take too much of my time but that she needed to tell me something. She then says something that sends chills through my body. She says “Lucy I have been going through your blog, I see what clearings have been the best for Alex and I think the next clearing for him should be (wait for it, wait for it) the flu vaccine”. I about lost the feeling in my legs and dropped to the floor. I mean, this can’t be a coincidence because well, those don’t exist. Everything happens for a reason, I asked god, he answered me through her. She gave me the confirmation I needed, she was gods messenger. When I hung up the phone I felt like such a relief, a weight lifted of me, I knew exactly what god wanted me to do, he had sent the answer.

The following Monday, which is now two weeks ago we began our flu clearing. It’s been very mellow, a little frustration here and there but nothing major. Today though, god answered my post from a few days ago. I posted about not being sure about moving up to 200C, that this weekend would be key to deciding that. Alex has been somewhat irritable today, sensitive to sound and his appetite is gone today. He felt warm and he asked for something he never does unless he’s not feeling good. He asked me to lay down with him as he wanted to take a nap. Alex doesn’t take naps, he hasn’t in years, so I know this means healing is happening, I just know it. He’s been peacefully sleeping for about an hour now. I feel such peace in my heart too, for some reason which I know I’ll find out soon. I feel like there’s beautiful days ahead of us. This clearing is what Alex needed, I know it is. I ask that you keep Alex in your thoughts and prayers. Help me put the best wishes for him out there, god listens and responds, always.

I’ll keep posting about how he is doing, you help him and me by praying for him. Wishing everyone a happy and safe holiday weekend. Sending lots of healing thoughts your way!!


Flu Clearing and everything in between.

And life just keeps getting better and better!

Per Yun’s request I am taking time out of our lovely day to write an update. I apologize for not doing this before, but believe me when I say life hasn’t been this good before. Alex is loving and living life as only he can, he is talking up a storm, laughing, singing, telling jokes, playing pranks on mom and dad, you name it, he does it. It is just beautiful to wake up everyday to a very cheerful “good morning mom, get up”. No matter how tired I am, hearing his voice gives me immense energy to get up and try to conquer the world once again.

He has been asking to go back to school as he says he misses his friends, yeah you read that right, his friends. I had an IEP meeting with the school before we left for California, He will be rejoining school this September. Alex is more social then I ever dreamed he could be, he is saying hi to everyone and anyone he is attracted to. I say “attracted” as he choses very wisely who he socialize with. You see, Alex is very intuitive, he knows good people when he sees them. He’s the best guide I’ve ever had when it comes to choosing friends. Alex can sense peoples energy and vibes, as crazy as that sounds it’s true. Alex loves happy people, people with good vibes, good intentions, real kind people, he knows exactly who they are. We have been working with a wonderful woman who does ever energetic work you could say, she has helped me discover things/abilities about Alex I had no idea he possessed. As cool as this is, it’s both a curse and a blessing to be able to feel people emotions as much as Alex does. Why you ask? Well because if we are at a place where there’s unhappy people, mad, uncomfortable, Alex can pick that up and it affects him. When he’s with people he likes and that like him he is the happiest ever. If you can get a chance to do energetic work with your child, I suggest you do it, you’ll be amazed at what you can find out about your child.

About two weeks ago we took the kids to California, we drove and it was quite interesting at times and hair pulling at others. 16 hours in a car with 3 children isn’t easy let me tell you, but we did it and Alex was the best behaved one of the kids. Santi on the other hand, OMG!!!!! While in California Alex had a hard time the first few days, it was up and down but we made it. He loved the beach and the rides at the beach specially. He wanted to ride a huge roller coaster but this momma was not about to get on with him, I’m a big chicken when it comes to heights. We got to meet a mom and her lovely son whom I’ve been talking to for some time on Facebook. Alex had a blast on the rides with him, I loved watching them both smile as they rode.

We have been back home for about 2 week now and Alex couldn’t be happier. We’ve had two super fun weekends with play dates at new friends houses. Julie started taekwondo back I’m January, I followed soon after. This has brought so many amazing souls into our lives. We’ve been blessed with such amazing families which we can call friends now. Alex has found a little friend thanks to taekwondo, he is Julie’s partner in crime and the first child to ever say he wanted to be Alex’s friend. This brought tears to my eyes as I have been waiting for this day for far too long. Watching Alex playing with him has been quite a blessing. He and Julie play everyday now, witnessing this is pure bliss. I couldn’t wake up to anything better than hearing those two laughing and role playing to scenes from movies or the “kids next door” which is their new favorite show.

Alex’s personality is coming out more and more daily, he plays pranks on me and then laughs hysterically. Followed by “mom I am funny”, yes you are my son, yes you are. I could write for hours about how great he is doing, seriously I could. Life is great now, recovery is much better than I ever imagined it. I am the happiest mother on the block, I can now sit out in my porch and have coffee without a worry in the world. I know my son is living the life I always dreamed off, he is living life, key words!

Wishing everyone out there the same healing we have been able to achieve. God is good, god is always with us, ask and you shall receive. Hope and healing, may we all find the way to it.










And life just keeps getting better and better!

Living the life we always dreamed of!

Lots of things have happened since our last post, lots and lots of happy things. For one Alex is so happy, he is enjoying life and that is what I prayed so much for. He wakes up every morning bright and early with a huge smile on his face. He goes into my room, lays next to me and says “good morning mom, can I go play my iPad in my room?”. He’s such a good little boy, always asks for mommy’s permission before he plays. As I lay in bed I can hear him singing throughout the house, laughing as he watches videos on his iPad, sometimes it’s reading out loud that I enjoy the most. When he is hungry he finds me to ask for his breakfast item of choice, that can be anything from pancakes to spaghetti or tacos, yeah this kid is something else. He eats like there’s no tomorrow, but then again so do I so that’s that. I still remember when he only ate about 5 things, boy have things changed.

As the day goes by he goes from a book, to a movie, to his iPad or better yet playing with his brother and sister. When we are lucky enough to have some sunshine he asks Julie to go outside with him to jump on the trampoline. They play chase and jump until they can’t no more. This has got to be one of the most beautiful sights my eyes have been blessed to see, watching Alex initiate play with his sister and others is such a blessing.
On sunday while we visited with Julie’s a godparents Alex saw two boys kicking a soccer ball around. Alex watched them for some time and then the unthinkable happened. As we all stood there talking and eating Alex got up and walked towards the boys, I kept my eyes on Alex to see what he would do. He went up to one of the boys and asked “what are you boys doing?” The boy answered “we are playing”, Alex looked at them some more and then asked “can I play?”. I about died at the very moment of excitement, my son, the boy who we were once told would/could never speak just asked another kid to play. The boys said “yes you can play” and one proceeded to kick the ball Alex’s way. Alex being the adorable geek that he is, doesn’t know much about sports, he has never been interested in them. He watched the ball come his way and made no attempt to stop it, it hit his leg and all he could do and say was, “ouch”. We all laughed and celebrated that amazing miracle we had all witnessed. Needless to say that moment made my day.

Everyday is a happy day at our home, everyday is a blessing I thank god for. As far as CEASE goes we are taking a break for now. Alex’s last clearing lasted a couple of months so we felt giving him a break was best. He is doing so well that I don’t feel we need to do much except enjoy every second of everyday. I waited so long to be able to write a post like this, so long. Feel so thankful the day has come, I have so much to be tankful for. And just like I can say this today, you will too one day. All I ask is that you never give up, that you always get up when you fall, that you fight for your child like your life depends on it, because it does. Recovery is possible, Alex is prove.




Living the life we always dreamed of!