These past few weeks have been so up and down, one day we are on top of the world the next we are thrown back down without a warning. It’s been over five years since we began this journey and while we’ve made leaps and bounds things do still get tough, really tough. When will it be over I ask myself, when? Living with a child who was vaccine injured is a daily struggle, it hurts everyone in the house when Alex is struggling. This flu clearing hasn’t been easy, it’s been far from it. While we’ve had amazing days we’ve also had lots of bad ones, and when I say bad I mean bad. Alex’s major reactions with this clearing has been anger, very little tolerance for sounds, and a lot of sleep issues as well. The first week on 200c he had a fever and flu like symptoms, we are on week 3 now and I still see how it aggravates his mood as we dose. The other two kids have caught runny noses, fevers and coughing as well, today I felt sick with flu like symptoms too. The good thing about the clearing is that I’ve noticed he’s been asking more questions, the days when he is happy he is so with it, such a joy to be able to see the true happy Alex. Gives me a little preview of what’s to come, because I have no doubt he will continue to heal.
As far as school goes we are done with that, took them less than a month to crush my baby’s spirit. He refuses to go to school and he begged for months to go back. I remember the night before school started, he didn’t want to go to sleep. As soon as I said “if you don’t go to bed now you won’t go to school tomorrow” Alex ran into his room and tucked himself in. He was so excited and happy to see his aide, he kept saying he wanted friends, that he missed school. Four days into school his teacher emails me and tells she noticed that one of Alex’s strength was math. She started sending him to a regular education classroom for math every morning. Alex was super happy at first but very fast he started refusing to go. It all has gone from bad to worse, I realize homeschooling is the best and only option for us. Plus with Alex’s reactions to this clearing I think the best thing to do is stay home and continue focusing on his healing.
As always I pray and ask that you keep us in your prayers, please send my baby healing thoughts and energy. Wishing you the same as well.
Pictures from Alex’s first day of school and his first day back to homeschooling. Something about being in your pjs while you teach and learn just makes me smile :)